Journaling:
Summer is ending. What will I do? It is as if my best friend is leaving, with no hope of ever returning. Will I ever see her again? The world has stopped turning for me. I want to grab summer and hold her tightly to my chest, refusing to allow her exit. She is my life. When she leaves,the startling reality that winter is upon us comes crashing down. I've been in Utah 21 years now, and still cannot survive the winters. Dread fills my soul and darkness looms knowing that the long cold frigid weather is at hand. I am filled with a dread that threatens to overwhelms me. When thoughts of the winter freeze enters my mind, I make a bee-line for the bed and pull the covers over my head. I just can't face it. Summer has deserted me. There is nothing to live for.

Except...

The end of summer brings the fighting and bickering and boredom and whining and messy house to an end! Hooray! The children are back in school! A lightness fills the room; a radiant light beams down upon me with the warmth of the knowledge that I'm free! "No more messes, I get to read books, no more children's dirty looks!" Quiet, peaceful grown-up quiet, once again. I pull out my foot spa, light the candles, and thank God that summer is over.